I’m Back (Sorta)

Wow – that was a longer hiatus than I planned for. The truth of the matter is that I’ve been really, really sick. There was even a hospital stay in the midst of my time off.  It all started at the end of October/beginning of November when I went to San Francisco and found that I was unable to maneuver on steps. At the same time, I was dropping weight like crazy, and in my mind, I thought this was a good thing. I must have lost 30-40 lbs from November-end of January.

The past few weeks have been crazy – I took 3 major spills in as many weeks, each one worse than the one before it. This latest fall had me hitting the garage door rail with my face, and busting my lip wide open. Needless to say, eating was the last thing on my mind.

Around Christmas, I started having major problems with getting up from chairs that were lower than knee level. Luckily P. was around to give me a hand so we worked with my limitations the best we could. I was getting weaker by the day, and we had no idea why. I just had no energy at all, but we still managed.

Fast forward to last week, where I was so weak that my legs went out from under me completely when I tried to stand. P. insisted that I go to the ER, and I was in no shape to argue. I got there, where they admitted me immediately because I was so dehydrated and malnourished that my condition was critical. They spent the next few days pumping me full of saline and strong antibiotics (because they thought I had sepsis as well).

One of the diagnosis codes was anorexia, probably because in many ways, my eating is disordered. I may not count calories, but I had many of the same things going on as a late-stage anorexia. Just goes to show that any person at any weight can eat in a way that can be harmful.

I was released from the hospital later this week, and am extremely bloated (I’d say 30-40 lbs of water weight, easily), and now I’m trying to eat and drink the way I’m supposed to. I keep on being told I’m not eating enough, not getting enough water, so I’m struggling with both of those things. Part of it is that my lips still have open cuts on them and it burns like hell when I eat anything the least bit acidic or super spicy. For the most part, we won’t be making any new recipes this month, but I’ve still got a ton of older entries I have yet to post. And P. will be posting a few entries. Just wanted to give everyone a heads up on what’s going on with me.